On higher ground..

I know i promised myself
I wouldn't hurt anymore
But times have changed & things i've heard,
Made me miss you more

Left adrift treading the sea
I ask myself how
"If you weren't sure she cared then
Why do you care now?"

Now that I know, what transpired
I guessed you would be down,
But then I admired you smiling away
Albeit with a frown

I thought revenge would mean
You rotting in hell
But you don't seem to be
needing any help

But in my pain,
To my surprise I found
What drove me less insane
Was being on the moral high ground..

Captain Spack Jarrow

You think you could make it in an instant
like a cup of coffee
But then you lose the moment
like the flash at sunset

As you step out
onto waters untread
with nothing but your will
and a mind unread

Like a tree without the sun
a bird losing its song
Its hard, so hard
Like man without a God

Then you know its time
time to unfurl your wings and fly
leaving the ground behind
and everything will turn out fine..

I'm gonna miss you..

I'd look over my shoulder
Thinking you'd look back too,
Then as i saw you with another
I was struck down with horror,
That I'm the fool here, not you..

I guess I'll move along
Its been ages since you've gone
About time I put you out of my mind
No more lovers' fight,
Time for a clean slate, tonight ..

I hope you never change
Enjoying life, like a child
Without bitterness or rage
I have no hate to confide
I wish, happiness, you will find..

Now that we are through
I'll have to find somebody new
Find somebody better
But i know, forever,
I'm gonna miss you..

I'm gonna.. miss.. you...

500 Days of Bummer..

There she goes
walking down the street,
Eyes all turn
when she's dancing to the beat..

Work's not a chore
with her lighting up your life,
Nothing's a bore
by the shining moonlight..

She's like a flower in bloom
Every time she sleeps,
Summer in June
that is what she is..

We needed no answer
but for a lover's sigh,
Then every single frown
turned into a fight..

Should've seen them coming ,
away, from a mile
Should've taken stock,
of those subtle signs..

Passion and romance,
Its all just a game,
Nothing is forever,
Neither love nor pain..

Get over her mate,
Such is fate,
Love is like laundry,
Just rinse and repeat..

Bliss..

The sunlight seemed to guide
the two of us
Hand-in-hand
on this unpaved path..

We cooked up lovely plans,
Made silly sweet romance..
and waded into
lands unchartered..

I knew I was meant for you
as you were meant for me..

I ran ahead to see
what bliss we could achieve,
but then i turned around
you were arm-in-arm with him, not me..

How was I to know,
That you would treat me so,
Is that all I am
A crushed up cola can..

I thought I was meant for you
as you were meant for me..

I thought we were meant to be
from the way you used to hold me,
Oh what a memory
Just you, and, me..

As I head off the tower
at this unearthly hour
It became plain to me
that you were not worth a scream..

I was not meant for you
nor you for me..

Only You...

My feelings may appear
Not so very clear
But I thought, they'd never show

Like the sacred seven
I felt heaven
That's all, I'll ever know

All I'd ever wanted
Was to see that smile
For now, and ever more

Every thing I do
Every thing so true
And it's all, you need to know

I make no pretensions
Or pray for divine intervention
Of that, you can be sure

Think all you like
Take your time
But I know for me, it's you.. only you..

Abandoned

A nightmarish fantasy
Of you walking away,
Felt abandoned here
In time, and space

The walls around
Turned red with regret,
Endless fear,
Was it time to repent

Where was the feeling
Where was the love
Where were those promises
We made to God up above

I felt your fingers unclasp from mine
Our arms, untwine,
The sacred thread unknot,
Was this happening, was it not

I awoke, feverish
Heaved a sigh of relief
You’d never leave
Remember promises we’d keep

It was just a dream,
things were not as bad as they seemed
Calming myself down,
I lay back on the sheets

But then I turned, seeking
Reassurance from you
Realization dawned,
That you’d abandoned me too..