Wanted: Black Swan

Why
Am I insecure about someone
I'm not with

And
Not sure of something
I'm secure in

Why
Am I still unsure
Of life itself

Is that
How my brain 
Is wired to be

Wondering
Will she be my soul-mate
On this rough trail 

And 
Would she have me
As much as I'd want her

Would she 
love me for an eternity
As long as I'd love her

Or
Will she change with time
And become my Delilah

Oh
I could throw up
And I ought to grow up

Knowing 
that only an ephipany
would break me out

Of this infinite loop..

Memory Of You

Wish you could hear this song
Playing aloud in my head,
Without you, it feels so wrong
Without you here instead

Written for your smile
Lost in your charm,
Written for the years,
You'd burrow into my arms

I'm living a million lifetimes with you
Even though you're so far,
But even with all those lifetimes
I'd still want one more

I'm a prisoner of these dreams
But so chained to reality,
A sentence to be served
Away from you for an eternity

What kept me going, yesterday,
And held me alive today,
Is the memory of you for tomorrow
Till the end of all days..

What I Need..

As I look into your eyes,
those pupils leading to your mind

When every scent pleasures you
Lingering in your sigh

When every pore on your body
feels me to the brim

As you listen to my voice
Shaped by love not whim

When you've let me fill,
Your mind, body and soul

All I need is your lips
To say, "I'm yours, my love"

Satisfaction

I saw the most beautiful girl tonight
The wind riding her hair
I fell for her smile
which I couldn't compare

Felt an eternity pass by
in that instant
Lived a lifetime with her
in that moment

But do I open my mouth
Before I lose that second
Should I murmur or shout
See if her toes beckoned

I met the most beautiful girl tonight
Spoke to her for a while
I had to be satisfied, with her smile
Knowing, she'd never be mine

Home.

Eight A.M.,
I'm out of bed,
Dreading my
day ahead

On my way,
At my desk,
I drift away
Right and left

She's always there,
in my sight,
never out
of my mind's eye

Away from her,
By a hundred miles,
Yet in no time,
Am by her side

Trees and birdies
on lazy evenings
like in the movies
But is it worth it?

And afterwards
as everything subsides,
That's when I,
Realize

I'm a fool in my
Own imagination
Loving whom
Without reciprocation

Now its eight P.M.,
in this world,
I'm heading home
Where i'll be alone

Its also eight P.M.
In another world,
But where I'm heading to
Her heart's my home..

Taken..

Though we talked for hours on end
We never talked about it,
And yet there's so much of you
that I still can't reach

I can't spurt cliches
or fancy pick-up lines,
But I wouldn't mind trying
If that's what you like

I hope I've done you no harm
or promises I've breached,
I pray I haven't gone wrong
with all those romantic schemes

I think I've grown up
Matured and changed,
And I hope I don't end up
Making the same mistake again

As I try hard to reconcile
That no matter how much I try,
You'd only be taken
By whom you want to be taken by..

Lost in you..

Streaking
Across the sky
Diamond studded

Falling
Through space
Unobstructed

Hoping
Yet contemplating
If you'd catch me

Crash-landing
Into your arms
Safely

Awakening
from a dream
seen vividly

Brushing aside
thy tresses
upon your visage

Lost, looking,
At you
For eternity

Confusions evaporate
And my mind is as clear
as can be

Need no eyes to see
That you are so beautiful
To me..