A Better Man

It's been too much
Of heaven, to hold
Its precious love, now
turning cold

There's an urge to turn
This chill into warmth
To say something nice
To make it feel better

But there's nothing left to say
As it's all been said and done
There's nothing left to give
As I've given all and held back none

Holding on to something 
Gifted so hastily
Is difficult to let go
And be crushed inside every day

Though with time
I couldn't take any more
But I also know that with time 
I'll be fine, I'll be better.. 

The art of falling apart..

Once the carpet is gone
The floor is laid bare,
As the windows are blown
And the heavy sunlight glares

When the pipes are smashed
And the water flows to waste,
As the concrete is broken
And the steel can't be salvaged

Then you begin to wonder
Wasn't this shelter
to be forever
Built like a rock, not paper

As you begin to question
this foundation ground to dust
Was that all it was
Love relegated to lust

Life is short,
so rebuild your heart,
But only once you've learnt the art
of falling apart..

The Wait

Afternoon's gone
And evening is nigh,
Without you I've spent
Another lonely night

Even the lava lamp's dead
With no remorse
Pictures in my head
With no recourse

Things seem different
When we don't pick a fight
Would I love you more
Under a different light

At my wits' end
And out of my mind,
Always in deadlock
Nev'r in line

Stumbling through a haze
For what should be mine
I await your call
For one last time..

Wanted: Black Swan

Why
Am I insecure about someone
I'm not with

And
Not sure of something
I'm secure in

Why
Am I still unsure
Of life itself

Is that
How my brain 
Is wired to be

Wondering
Will she be my soul-mate
On this rough trail 

And 
Would she have me
As much as I'd want her

Would she 
love me for an eternity
As long as I'd love her

Or
Will she change with time
And become my Delilah

Oh
I could throw up
And I ought to grow up

Knowing 
that only an ephipany
would break me out

Of this infinite loop..

What I Need..

As I look into your eyes,
those pupils leading to your mind

When every scent pleasures you
Lingering in your sigh

When every pore on your body
feels me to the brim

As you listen to my voice
Shaped by love not whim

When you've let me fill,
Your mind, body and soul

All I need is your lips
To say, "I'm yours, my love"

Satisfaction

I saw the most beautiful girl tonight
The wind riding her hair
I fell for her smile
which I couldn't compare

Felt an eternity pass by
in that instant
Lived a lifetime with her
in that moment

But do I open my mouth
Before I lose that second
Should I murmur or shout
See if her toes beckoned

I met the most beautiful girl tonight
Spoke to her for a while
I had to be satisfied, with her smile
Knowing, she'd never be mine

Home.

Eight A.M.,
I'm out of bed,
Dreading my
day ahead

On my way,
At my desk,
I drift away
Right and left

She's always there,
in my sight,
never out
of my mind's eye

Away from her,
By a hundred miles,
Yet in no time,
Am by her side

Trees and birdies
on lazy evenings
like in the movies
But is it worth it?

And afterwards
as everything subsides,
That's when I,
Realize

I'm a fool in my
Own imagination
Loving whom
Without reciprocation

Now its eight P.M.,
in this world,
I'm heading home
Where i'll be alone

Its also eight P.M.
In another world,
But where I'm heading to
Her heart's my home..