Wanted: Black Swan

Why
Am I insecure about someone
I'm not with

And
Not sure of something
I'm secure in

Why
Am I still unsure
Of life itself

Is that
How my brain 
Is wired to be

Wondering
Will she be my soul-mate
On this rough trail 

And 
Would she have me
As much as I'd want her

Would she 
love me for an eternity
As long as I'd love her

Or
Will she change with time
And become my Delilah

Oh
I could throw up
And I ought to grow up

Knowing 
that only an ephipany
would break me out

Of this infinite loop..