Must've..

I'm heading home,
To a place without her,
I'm heading to
A place without love

I'm going back
To where I don't belong,
But it's so black
Void of her song

The scent of her kiss,
still fresh on my lips,
The memories of our bliss
Are mine to reminisce

Ah, the memories are still there
For me to drown in,
For that future,
For which I was longing

Though time will tell
If I made a mistake,
Or if I deserved this,
This dreaded heart-break

But she'll come back, won't she?
Because after all we'd been through,
whatever she meant to me,
I must've meant something to her too..

The Princess & The Frog..

You were a princess
And I was just a frog,
But for you though
I did not long

You came to my pond
And before long,
You lured me
With your incessant song

Taken by your beauty
And of what we could be,
I gave you all
A frog could give and more

You kissed my soul
And made me a Prince,
Yours I'd be
Forever, at your will

As you didn't object
I cast caution to the wind,
I thought I did everything right
To be your true king

But as I became a Prince
Strengthened by your armour without chinks
Something in you changed
That my frog-brain couldn't calculate

Because as I became your Prince
With all that you want,
You then decided
You didn't want me at all..

My all..

Why did you lead me up

Only to bleed me out,

Pull me all the way to heaven

Just to drag me down

Was it to let me know

That I was but a clown,

For every laugh I won

Was at my expense, a scorn

I gave it all away

Damning all consequences,

And I gained nothing in return

Except heartburn

But then it's not your fault

I guess I am to blame,

Because no matter how I'd re-live it

It'd just end up the same

I know I must get up 

every time I fall,

But it hurts to know, next time,

I can't give it my all..

Why do we..

Every day, I feel older
Every day feels colder
So won't you
pull me a little closer

Inspite of love
Would you remember,
The strength of the seams
That held us together

Shades of black
and whispers untold,
A cry
On an impassive shoulder

Is it meaningless to apologize
repentance for my guilt,
As I agonize over
a crime without a sin

But now that its over
Without a winner,
Come to think of it,
Why do we even bother..

A Better Man

It's been too much
Of heaven, to hold
Its precious love, now
turning cold

There's an urge to turn
This chill into warmth
To say something nice
To make it feel better

But there's nothing left to say
As it's all been said and done
There's nothing left to give
As I've given all and held back none

Holding on to something 
Gifted so hastily
Is difficult to let go
And be crushed inside every day

Though with time
I couldn't take any more
But I also know that with time 
I'll be fine, I'll be better.. 

The art of falling apart..

Once the carpet is gone
The floor is laid bare,
As the windows are blown
And the heavy sunlight glares

When the pipes are smashed
And the water flows to waste,
As the concrete is broken
And the steel can't be salvaged

Then you begin to wonder
Wasn't this shelter
to be forever
Built like a rock, not paper

As you begin to question
this foundation ground to dust
Was that all it was
Love relegated to lust

Life is short,
so rebuild your heart,
But only once you've learnt the art
of falling apart..

The Wait

Afternoon's gone
And evening is nigh,
Without you I've spent
Another lonely night

Even the lava lamp's dead
With no remorse
Pictures in my head
With no recourse

Things seem different
When we don't pick a fight
Would I love you more
Under a different light

At my wits' end
And out of my mind,
Always in deadlock
Nev'r in line

Stumbling through a haze
For what should be mine
I await your call
For one last time..

Wanted: Black Swan

Why
Am I insecure about someone
I'm not with

And
Not sure of something
I'm secure in

Why
Am I still unsure
Of life itself

Is that
How my brain 
Is wired to be

Wondering
Will she be my soul-mate
On this rough trail 

And 
Would she have me
As much as I'd want her

Would she 
love me for an eternity
As long as I'd love her

Or
Will she change with time
And become my Delilah

Oh
I could throw up
And I ought to grow up

Knowing 
that only an ephipany
would break me out

Of this infinite loop..